Friday, February 13, 2009

What Does Clinic Do? Part Two

Here are two more responses to the question, "How has your experience at the Confidence Clinic impacted our life?"


Betty Moore (past participant):

The feeling of success. Uh, the feeling of walking out the door and there wasn’t this heavy weight and being able to be who I needed to be here, myself, and not pretend I was somebody out there that… You know, in the real world I always pretended I was somebody else, the hard-core-shelled person of, and I wasn’t. ... There was this inner side of me that needed to be let out. From probably the age of 9 or 10, probably was when I started pretending I was somebody else on the outside and became the tough, hard core person.

Yeah, I got to be Betty for the first time.


Allison Green (past participant):

I uh, my son had had a brain injury. And um, I started getting panic attacks, and I didn’t realize what they were. And um, I thought I was dying, actually. And, I was afraid, and I didn’t...it got to where I couldn’t leave my house. And I couldn’t, I couldn’t walk to the mailbox across the street, um, without being afraid. So I knew I had to do something. And uh, so I called Confidence Clinic. And I’ve, and I’ve always said, over the last 18 years, you know, that Confidence Clinic saved my life. And um, that’s how I feel. And I realize now that, you know, I saved my own life, but Confidence Clinic gave me the tools and the skills,...and helped me find that that I had deep within myself to succeed. And I’m not saying that I’m anxiety free, um, because everybody has anxiety, you know, over their life. But um, I’ve done a lot of things since then…

What difference has it made? Well, I’ve stood up for myself. And I can stand up for my friends. Um, I would have never ventured out to go to college, uh… Maybe I would have, but I don’t know, I don’t think so. Uh, I, when I graduated from Beauty College, you know, that was really good, you know.

But when I went to police academy, I’m telling you, my family was shocked. They’re like, yeah – you know my family’s all from, you know, the inside of the bars looking out, you know. And so they were just really pleased that I went out, and I did something. And I’m 49 years old. Um, did I think I was going to die on the way, you know, running? Well, I had to call on Jesus a lot, because otherwise I don’t think I could have run six miles. But, um, I’ve learned to have inner fortitude. I’ve learned to speak, be a public speaker.

I’ve learned that, uh, the impact that it had on me was, you know, I know I’m not all of that [good looking], you know, Anna, but I know that I’m not uh hard on the eyeballs either. I used to think I was the ugliest thing that walked. And Clinic helped me know that beauty’s from the inside, and it’s what kind of person you are - and make-up helps, you know.

[laughter]

And um, so it impacted my life that way - that I could be who I really am, and not the person that I became because of abuse, or because of… And I wasn’t a mean, or, you know, any person like that. It’s that I didn’t have the confidence, or the willpower, or the, to bring it out. And it helped - Clinic helped me do that, to see that I could be all that I could be, you know. And um, and at 49, I’m the oldest female to graduate academy. And so, um, I learned uh that you can do anything you want to do. Was I scared? Yes. Did I have anxiety? Oh, yeah. You know, but I had the tools to deal with it.

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